Yes, yes, I'm finally writing here again. Im finally clearing the air around here. Its been stale. Gotta change the layout one of these days.

So anyways, today I had drama. We painted the set stuff and props. It was quite fun though I was spotted with the white paint. We finished painting in record time. I think the set will look great. While we were white-washing the stuff, we had to white-wash it over and over again so that the previous paint colour wont be seen. Well, that made me think. It's kinda like life. No matter how many times you try to forget something, it will always be there and may resurface at times. Haha. I really feel so. We just can't hide or try to paint over it. It is part of us.

That too made me think of HC. I must admit I was a bit disappointed but it was a load off my mind. I knew somehow I wouldnt get in cos people have misconceptions about why I'm running. It's kinda frustrating that almost everyone relates my actions to him. It's a disparaging situation. It would have been awkward truthfully if I had gotten into HC. He was probably so against it but shadnt be too hasty. Haha.

Anyways, one of my friends told me that I actually had a somewhat good chance of getting into HC. She said that they were impressed by the way I speak but they have a problem with my attitude apparently. They thought that it was quite hypocritical that I said that we should get more people to participate when I did not join any sports event. Well, I must clarify that I would like to join sports events but I have a long-term mc cos of my oil scald. I cant participate but I can help support. I did try cos I was an OGL and had to learn all the mass dances. Shucks, I sound defensive but the thing is that people like to assume. They have these misconceptions and it's really unsettling. But I cant do much but to not let it bother me and just keep smiling. Haha, I'm always smiling. It's like a reflex action and I smile at perfect strangers sometimes.

Anyways, on my way home, I met this old lady at the bus-stop. she had asked me for the time and was waiting for her granddaughter. It was raining heavily and somehow, we got into a conversation. She was really nice and talked mostly about how her children are so busy and how she is sometimes taken for granted. But underneath it all, I can sense that she really loves her family and all she needed was someone to talk to. She talked for about half an hour until her granddaughter arrived. I was really touched by how she would wait for so long for her granddaughter and was also a bit sad for her cos all she needs is someone to talk to. I actually had a nice time talking with her.

It was still raining when I left the bus-stop to walk home. Knowing it was futile to remain dry, I took my time walking through the park. It was a lovely scene with the rain falling and the trees swaying with the breeze. The light from the streetlamps reflected in the puddles. A lady with an umbrella actually offered to share her umbrella with me. I answered 'I can't possibly get any wetter, can I?'. She laughed. Haha, it's things like these that make me believe in all the propaganda that the government issues. Singapore is a nice and cozy place. But it also largely depends on your own perception and mentality.

Haha, I was just reminded of the story Su Xin and me made up in school today. It was hilarious. I think it was also partly cos of the chocolate pillows. It made us high. Haha

I'm in a really melancholic mood today. Im kinda okay about the whole HC thing. I can concentrate on other things and the rest of my PDPs. I'll definitely keep my promise and scream my head off for Gamma at events. =P

However, still a bit confused and irritated about him.

I need closure. And chocolate.
wasted her life @ -9:35 p.m.-

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